Maybe I'm the oddball, but, I was reading some articles on the lifelong effects that spanking children has on their emotional and mental development when it hit me.
Being spanked as a child is a large part of why I started self harming as a teenager.
Let me unpack this statement a little bit. From a child, I had been taught through example that physical punishment was the Biblically advocated way of training your children. To be fair, my mother absolutely hated spanking us. She would cry at night because she believed it was wrong. But according to Mike and Debi Pearl, corporal punishment is the only way to properly "train up a child". We were spanked for back talking, direct disobedience, rebellion, tattling...and the list goes on.
Being spanked teaches a child that physical pain is the only appropriate atonement for his/her misdemeanors.
And while my parents truly loved us and believed that spanking was the Biblical way to train their children, I have come to question the subconscious impact which this ideology has had on the way I relate to punishment.
When I was 15, I reached a particularly low point in my life. My parents had just found out about a young man I was in a relationship with, and were extremely displeased with the content of some of our conversations (eg. swearing, his expressing a desire to kiss me, etc..) among other things. Feeling that a relationship was not in my best interest at this point, they grounded me for a week and lectured me extensively. But, for me, this punishment wasn't enough. Although I didn't realize it at the time, I had become subconsciously convinced that punishment which did not cause physical pain was not adequate punishment. Because, after all, a lecture was never good enough when I had sinned as child. Spanking was always in order. Therefore, as soon as I found myself alone in my room, I, almost instinctively, physically lashed out against myself, taking a disposable razor to my wrist until it was dripping blood. I felt instantly better. Afterwards, I cleaned it up, bandaged it, and fell asleep. Dad commented the next day that I seemed happier. I was even smiling!
It became a vicious cycle. Whereas when I was a child, if I did something wrong, I was immediately spanked and then the incident was forgotten, as I got older the spanking became less frequent, and lectures replaced it. What I didn't realize was that I had unwittingly adopted the notion that physical punishment is the only adequate punishment. So, if I did something wrong, or my parents were displeased with me, hurting myself became second nature.
I cannot tell you how harmful this mentality is.
When Christ died, HE took the physical pain punishment for ALL my sins. Knowing that my parents are displeased, natural consequences, or rebuke, should be punishment enough for me. Of course, there are consequences, but these should be natural ones. For instance, if you eat twenty pieces of cake, you're going to make yourself sick. This doesn't mean that wrong should be condoned. If my brother hits me, he's going to be told why that's wrong and if he persists in wrongdoing, should be punished by a timeout or something similar.
Obviously, circumstances are different for every family, but for me, at least, being spanked unwittingly implanted the idea in my head that physical pain is the only valid form of punishment.
I've wondered for months why it was that, when I reached that point where my parents were so upset at me, hurting myself was an almost instinctive reaction. I didn't even think about it. It felt natural. It felt...right. There was no question in my mind that I completely deserved the physical pain for disappointing my parents, allowing myself to have romantic feelings for a boy, and using bad language. I believe a large part of it is that when I was young, I knew I was in the doghouse if I had acted wrongly. Apologizing didn't fix things. Being lectured didn't change things. BUT, as soon as I had gotten the appropriate amount of spankings, everything was forgiven and I was reminded again of how loved I was. How does one make the mental transition from "I need to be physically punished for any transgression" to "Now that I've reached a certain age, a lecture or being grounded is adequate punishment"?
And for those who argue that Proverbs commands parents to spank their children (Mike and Debi Pearl, I'm looking right at you!!), my response is that Proverbs is in the Old Testament, and although I don't believe we should discount it merely because it happens to be before the birth of Christ, please show me a passage anywhere in the New Testament under the New Covenant which commands spanking children as a form of punishment! The verses in the New Testament on child rearing say to not provoke your children to wrath but rather bring them up in the nurture and admonition of the Lord. Admonition is NOT the same as spanking.
And, while I'll readily admit that my ideas on child raising aren't completely developed yet, I agree far more with those who advocate not spanking your children, or only using spanking as a very last resort, than those who spank their children constantly for any real or imagined misdemeanor.
<3 Tirzah
Saturday, September 20, 2014
Friday, September 19, 2014
And The Truth Will Set You Free
For the past six months I've struggled with depression and guilt over a past relationship.
Trying to make sense of it all. Trying to figure out where my path now lies, independent of him. Trying to determine how much "damage" had been done to my heart, and beating myself up for my failure to remain absolutely pure.
I was so convinced that somehow it was my fault. Everything was my fault somehow. No matter that when asked HOW everything automatically became my fault, I couldn't give any concrete reasons for why I believed that. I found myself caught in a strange emotional state where I refused to blame him, yet, the burden of guilt was too heavy for me. So I relied even more heavily on destructive coping mechanisms. I dissected ever single aspect of the relationship trying to determine where I went wrong. I was slowly destroying myself.
Trying to make sense of it all. Trying to figure out where my path now lies, independent of him. Trying to determine how much "damage" had been done to my heart, and beating myself up for my failure to remain absolutely pure.
I was so convinced that somehow it was my fault. Everything was my fault somehow. No matter that when asked HOW everything automatically became my fault, I couldn't give any concrete reasons for why I believed that. I found myself caught in a strange emotional state where I refused to blame him, yet, the burden of guilt was too heavy for me. So I relied even more heavily on destructive coping mechanisms. I dissected ever single aspect of the relationship trying to determine where I went wrong. I was slowly destroying myself.
Well, you know what? No more.
I've learned and am learning that it's not necessarily anyone's "fault". Sometimes it's timing that's just flawed. Sometimes it's outside sources that we have no control over. Or fate steps in. Sometimes your past comes back to haunt you, and damages things. Sometimes it just isn't meant to be, and no matter how much you may love someone, it doesn't always work out. Sometimes you need the pain, the heartbreak to wake you up and make you question beliefs and practices which you've always accepted as gospel but which were wrong all along. Sometimes love doesn't work out, but just because it didn't work out doesn't mean it wasn't real at the time. And sometimes our own desires hopes, fears, and dreams destroy us.
But a life lived in fear (or shame) is a life half lived.
So today I choose to step out of the shadows, embrace life, love, and happiness, and let go of the past.
So today I choose to step out of the shadows, embrace life, love, and happiness, and let go of the past.
It's a lesson I can't learn soon enough.
<3 Tirzah
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Women Don't Struggle With Lust, Right?
As I was reading through transcripts of Nancy Leigh DeMoss' radio series on Modesty, I was struck by (yet another) outrageous claim of hers.
"Men tend to be visually oriented and this can be hard for women to understand"
Later on, she says that
"Women...aren't sexually stimulated in the same way as men".
(AKA, women don't struggle with lust)
She goes into great detail on the struggles MEN have while dealing with lust, citing Every Man's Battle, and reading examples such as one story of a young man who started lusting because he was exposed to the outline of a girl's underwear. No where does she mention lust in relation to women in any other capacity than a woman being the reason for a man's lust.
Underlying this is a common assumption which I have found primarily in Christian circles, and that is that lust is a purely guy problem. Women simply do not struggle with lust.
This begs the question, though. What IS lust?
Lust, according to Merriam - Webster, is an "intense or unbridled sexual desire".
This goes far deeper than attraction, or even a desire to have sex with someone. Lust is when you allow a fantasy to take root in your brain, and encourage and entertain it.
I have a greater respect for Josh Harris than any other Christian purity writer. And this is why.
"Lust is not just a guy problem. It is a human problem...there are many women who would struggle in ways that you might call traditionally male kinds of struggles with lust" - Josh Harris (Revive Our Hearts)
My initial reaction to this quote is "Preach it!"
He also admits that "Many people would say that women just deal with their emotions" and goes on to say that this isn't actually true.
Looks like someone's grown and matured a bit since "I Kissed Dating Goodbye"!
Too often, especially in Christian purity culture, there is this pervading idea that men, and only men struggle with being visually stimulated, addicted to pornography, masturbating, intense sexual fantasies and lust.
This is simply not the truth.
If it was, why are more and more godly Christian women admitting to struggles with pornography or masturbating?
If it was, why do we have an entire industry of graphic erotica novels marketed to women?
If it was, why do men work on their abs in order to impress "the ladies" as opposed to working on their brains?
If it was, why did Medieval writers depict women as the more "lusty" of the sexes? (Think Canterbury Tales, The Wife of Bath)
If it was, why is 1 out of every 3 persons to visit a porn website a woman?
Come on, people.
Ask any red-blooded female whether or not she's ever lusted after a guy before, and I guarantee you she will say yes.
Go listen to some Nikki Minaj or Tinashe. Or even some Demi Lovato for crying out loud!
Lust is not just a "guy problem".
Lust is a human problem.
And instead of making like women's struggles with lust don't exist, how about treating it with the same amount of validity and concern as men's?
THAT would be something to see!
<3 Tirzah
"Men tend to be visually oriented and this can be hard for women to understand"
Later on, she says that
"Women...aren't sexually stimulated in the same way as men".
(AKA, women don't struggle with lust)
She goes into great detail on the struggles MEN have while dealing with lust, citing Every Man's Battle, and reading examples such as one story of a young man who started lusting because he was exposed to the outline of a girl's underwear. No where does she mention lust in relation to women in any other capacity than a woman being the reason for a man's lust.
Underlying this is a common assumption which I have found primarily in Christian circles, and that is that lust is a purely guy problem. Women simply do not struggle with lust.
This begs the question, though. What IS lust?
Lust, according to Merriam - Webster, is an "intense or unbridled sexual desire".
This goes far deeper than attraction, or even a desire to have sex with someone. Lust is when you allow a fantasy to take root in your brain, and encourage and entertain it.
I have a greater respect for Josh Harris than any other Christian purity writer. And this is why.
"Lust is not just a guy problem. It is a human problem...there are many women who would struggle in ways that you might call traditionally male kinds of struggles with lust" - Josh Harris (Revive Our Hearts)
My initial reaction to this quote is "Preach it!"
He also admits that "Many people would say that women just deal with their emotions" and goes on to say that this isn't actually true.
Looks like someone's grown and matured a bit since "I Kissed Dating Goodbye"!
Too often, especially in Christian purity culture, there is this pervading idea that men, and only men struggle with being visually stimulated, addicted to pornography, masturbating, intense sexual fantasies and lust.
This is simply not the truth.
If it was, why are more and more godly Christian women admitting to struggles with pornography or masturbating?
If it was, why do we have an entire industry of graphic erotica novels marketed to women?
If it was, why do men work on their abs in order to impress "the ladies" as opposed to working on their brains?
If it was, why did Medieval writers depict women as the more "lusty" of the sexes? (Think Canterbury Tales, The Wife of Bath)
If it was, why is 1 out of every 3 persons to visit a porn website a woman?
Come on, people.
Ask any red-blooded female whether or not she's ever lusted after a guy before, and I guarantee you she will say yes.
Go listen to some Nikki Minaj or Tinashe. Or even some Demi Lovato for crying out loud!
Lust is not just a "guy problem".
Lust is a human problem.
And instead of making like women's struggles with lust don't exist, how about treating it with the same amount of validity and concern as men's?
THAT would be something to see!
<3 Tirzah
Thursday, September 18, 2014
"But..God Told Me She Was The One!" ... On Playing The God Card
A couple days ago a young man I know pulled me aside and confessed, "I think I'm in love with you".
Quite frankly, I was stunned. I couldn't form a single coherent thought for fully five minutes, which for me is practically impossible. I always have something to say. By the time I recovered my self possession, we had been interrupted by a couple others, and weren't able to finish the conversation until later that day by chatting online. At that time he revealed to me that he believed he felt God tell him that that was the time to express his feelings and blamed God for why he "fell in love" with me.
Um.. Please.
I severely dislike what I'm going to call "Playing the God-Card In Relationships" (thank you, Messy Mondays for the terminology) for several reasons.
1. People substitute their feelings for what God supposedly says. It's, quite frankly, blasphemy. "God told me" becomes the acceptable Christian-speak for "I want to..." It has absolutely nothing to do with what God says, and everything to do with what YOU want!
2. It's spiritual guilt trippng. If you've asked me out and I turned you down, telling me that "God told you I was the one" in order to make me go out with you makes me feel guilty for not liking you even though God hasn't said anything to me about you! If God REALLY revealed to you that I was "the one", then don't you think He is capable of revealing it to me as well? I mean, come on. What good Christian girl will say "no" if you say that God told you that the two of you are supposed to be together? Wouldn't that "go against God'?
3. Not to be stereotyping here, but if you're a Christian guy with nothing to really recommend you, then if you play the God - card, I will see it as your way of trying to get a date since no girl would date you under any other circumstances! Which. Might be mean, but....that's how it appears to me!
4.It can give people incredible license to do whatever they wish. For instance, one day "God told me you're the one for me" becomes "God told me to break up with you" the next day. There's no accountability.
5. It is most definitely taking God's name in vain. If you are not 100% sure that God has told you to do something (AND it's been confirmed by Him..think Gideon!), DON'T say He revealed something to you, because it's using His name when you really shouldn't.
6. It's a cop-out. It's used as the ultimate cop-out to avoid being honest and saying what you really feel. Instead of an honest "I dont feel the same way for you as you do for me", someone will say "I felt God telling me we weren't a good fit". Instead of an honest "I am attracted to you and I really want you to date me", someone says "God told me you were the one". Please. Have the guts to be honest with yourself and the other person.
Finally, God is God. And, while He desires to be intimately involved in every single aspect of our lives, don't use Him as a pseudonym for your hormones and desires!
While I have many regrets about my last relationship, one thing I will say is that my ex boyfriend never played the God - Card on me. He never used God as an excuse to date me, or as a way out when he decided the relationship wasn't going anywhere and we were better off ending things. We were the ones who made the decisions, and we were the ones who took responsibility when it fell apart. It wasn't God's fault.
If you're a guy reading this, please don't ever use God as an excuse for why a particular girl should date you, or why your relationship isn't working out for you therefore you need to break up. If it's truly God's will for you and someone to be together, He will reveal it to you both individually, and confirm it through other sources as well. And, if she doesn't feel the same way you do, please don't ever use the "God told me" argument to try to convince her to date you. It's just guilting her into a relationship, and that sets you off on the wrong foot to start with! If you want out of a relationship, say so and state your reasons. Blaming God for your decisions is just wrong.
Have the courage to be honest.
Downsides of Christian Patriarchy: When Respect Becomes Husband -Worship
Recently, while browsing the internet I came across this article entitled "27 Ways To Show Your Husband Respect".
Now, let me say that I have absolutely nothing wrong with respecting your husband. However, some of the principles advocated here caught me off guard and had me questioning the motives behind the article.
The author starts out by chronicling some of her own struggles with respecting her husband, and pointing out that respect is shown because of love.
Some of her suggestions are valid and good advice for ANY relationship. Such as:
"Pray for Him"
"If you need his help, ask him clearly. Don't beat around the bush...or try to manipulate"
"Let him know you enjoy just being with him"
....and others. But, some were rather disturbing as well.
"Hold his hand in public"
What if your husband isn't into PDA? Does that mean you fail to sufficiently honor and respect your husband by not showing PDA?
"Dress modestly so you don't draw the attention of other men"
Hold up. Since when is it the WOMAN'S sole fault if someone lusts after her? There's just all kinds of wrongness about this statement.
"Attempt to keep your home in order for his comfort"
I remember, growing up, the stress my mother dealt with having to not only watch, train, and homeschool five children (all under the age of ten), but also trying to keep the house in tip top shape. Having a clean house isn't a bad thing. Is a woman "disrespecting" her husband, though, if she's been run ragged all day tidying, training, and teaching to the point where, by the time he gets home, the house is a mess?
"Praise him for accomplishments"
This goes both ways. A husband should appreciate all the work his wife puts in, and vice versa. Marriage isn't a one way street.
"Join him on an adventure of his choosing"
..which would seem to imply that any adventure of the wife's choosing isn't valid?
"Ask your spouse about his job. Listen to his struggles and accomplishments.."
Again, marriage is not a one way street. One of the greatest lessons I've learned from my dad is how a real man treats a woman. Sure, mom asks about dad's day, but he also asks about hers!
What disturbed me the most, however, was getting to the end of the article and noticing that no where on the site is a related article on how husbands can respect/love their wives! There were articles on how to strengthen your marriage, what husbands wish their wives knew, etc, but it all seemed drastically one-sided, where the wife is supposed to bend over backwards to "respect, honor, and submit" to her husband and his only responsibility is to "lead" the family without teaching men what Biblical leadership looks like! (which is servant leadership btw...look at Jesus!)
<3 Tirzah
Now, let me say that I have absolutely nothing wrong with respecting your husband. However, some of the principles advocated here caught me off guard and had me questioning the motives behind the article.
The author starts out by chronicling some of her own struggles with respecting her husband, and pointing out that respect is shown because of love.
Some of her suggestions are valid and good advice for ANY relationship. Such as:
"Pray for Him"
"If you need his help, ask him clearly. Don't beat around the bush...or try to manipulate"
"Let him know you enjoy just being with him"
....and others. But, some were rather disturbing as well.
"Hold his hand in public"
What if your husband isn't into PDA? Does that mean you fail to sufficiently honor and respect your husband by not showing PDA?
"Dress modestly so you don't draw the attention of other men"
Hold up. Since when is it the WOMAN'S sole fault if someone lusts after her? There's just all kinds of wrongness about this statement.
"Attempt to keep your home in order for his comfort"
I remember, growing up, the stress my mother dealt with having to not only watch, train, and homeschool five children (all under the age of ten), but also trying to keep the house in tip top shape. Having a clean house isn't a bad thing. Is a woman "disrespecting" her husband, though, if she's been run ragged all day tidying, training, and teaching to the point where, by the time he gets home, the house is a mess?
"Praise him for accomplishments"
This goes both ways. A husband should appreciate all the work his wife puts in, and vice versa. Marriage isn't a one way street.
"Join him on an adventure of his choosing"
..which would seem to imply that any adventure of the wife's choosing isn't valid?
"Ask your spouse about his job. Listen to his struggles and accomplishments.."
Again, marriage is not a one way street. One of the greatest lessons I've learned from my dad is how a real man treats a woman. Sure, mom asks about dad's day, but he also asks about hers!
What disturbed me the most, however, was getting to the end of the article and noticing that no where on the site is a related article on how husbands can respect/love their wives! There were articles on how to strengthen your marriage, what husbands wish their wives knew, etc, but it all seemed drastically one-sided, where the wife is supposed to bend over backwards to "respect, honor, and submit" to her husband and his only responsibility is to "lead" the family without teaching men what Biblical leadership looks like! (which is servant leadership btw...look at Jesus!)
<3 Tirzah
Monday, September 15, 2014
Glorify God in Your Body and in Your Spirit, Which Are....Your Future Spouse's?
"For ye are bought with a price, therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit which are your future spouse's" (1 Corinthians 6:20)
Anyone with even a rudimentary knowledge of the Bible can see where I have misquoted the above verse. The actual scripture reads:
"For ye are bought with a price, therefore glorify God in your body and your spirit which are God's!" (1 Corinthians 6:20 emphasis mine)
Yet anyone who has been subject to conservative Christian teaching on purity is forced to admit that most Christian purity arguments go something like this.
a. It is God's intent for every Christian to marry someday.
b. He has chosen a spouse for each man/woman who consistently submits to His will.
c. The Proverbs 31 woman does her husband "good and not evil all the days of her life"
d. Therefore, she does him good even before she is married to him.
e. You are, whether you realize it or not, in a covenant relationship with your future spouse, regardless of your current relationship status.
f. It is your duty to do him good and not evil all the days of your life, This includes right now.
g. In light of that, any physical or emotional connection you have with a member of the opposite gender who is not either your husband or the person you are currently courting is sinful, if not downright adulterous.
h. (And I'm not even going to go into the whole "giving away pieces of your heart" doctrine!)
However. This argument is flawed for several reasons.
Firstly, it makes no provision for those who will never marry. Look at all the Biblical heroes who never married. Elijah, Paul, Luke, John the Baptist, Jeremiah, Isaiah...for crying out loud, even Jesus was single! Nowhere in the Bible does it say that being married is essential for serving the Lord. Jesus himself said that some are celibate for the kingdom of God and he not once condemns those who do not marry. Paul points out that those who are unmarried can better serve the Lord since their focus is on Him and not on their spouse.
Secondly, no where in the Bible does it say that God has divinely appointed a spouse for each person. It does say that He has ordained all of our days, however, he also gave us free will.
Thirdly, the problem with applying scripture about the married to the unmarried is quite simply taking scripture out of context. As my old Pastor always said, "a text without a context is a pretext".
Fourth, this is purely Biblical speculation. Again, applying a scripture about a married person to the unmarried.
Fifth, please show me where in the Bible you find this idea. WITHOUT taking scripture out of context! If you are engaged to someone, well, yes, you are committed to them. But telling a young person that he/she is currently in a covenant relationship with a future spouse who may or may not exist essentially compels them to feel that they must marry the first person they have a serious relationship with, because if they don't, then they somehow have not "saved" themselves for their future spouse.
Sixth, again, it's all speculation built off Proverbs 31: 12.
Seventh, (and this is a topic for a whole blog post in and of itself), this is not only damaging to genuine guy-girl friendships, but places those who have dated, and/or been heartbroken in a "damaged goods" category and is straight up legalism. Nowhere in the Bible does it say that interaction, a deep connection to, or a relationship with someone of the opposite gender is a sin. Sexual immorality? Yes, is a sin. Adultery and lust? oh yeah. But to invent rules which are not in the Bible and claim that anyone who breaks these man-made rules is sinning against God is exactly what Jesus condemned the Pharisees for!
Now, obviously this doesn't mean you should trash your body, engage in premarital sex, etc. But I know that I, for one, have struggled with intense shame for many years because I bought this approach to relationships hook, line, and sinker. I beat myself up over a simple dance with a guy (and mind you, this was swing dance, not even, like, slow dancing or something!) because according to this approach, since I had allowed a guy to hold my hand, I was now "impure" and hadn't "saved everything" for my future husband. Well, what if I never marry? Does that mean that I should never ever dance with a guy, hold hands, have a heart to heart, etc because it somehow doesn't save ALL my body, mind, spirit, and soul for a future spouse who, like I've said before, may or may not exist??
Now does that mean that you shouldn't stay pure? Of course not! Ultimately, though, how many souls you've won for Christ is going to be of far more value to God than the number of times you've held a guys hand.
Our approach to purity should be to, as the verse says, to glorify God in our bodies and spirits because they are bought with a price, and belong to GOD! My body does not belong to my future spouse. But by the same token, it doesn't belong to me, either! It belongs to God. It is HIS temple, and I have a responsibility to HIM to use it wisely and for HIS ultimate glory. Scripture says that as an unmarried woman, I have greater freedom to focus on GOD because I don't have to worry about pleasing my husband. If I am so consumed with the little things, however, all with a purpose to "please my future spouse", then what's the purpose of being single anyways??
May as well be married. To a shadow. Because that's basically what you are. Married to a ghost of a future spouse who may or may not exist, but who you cannot "defraud" because to do so would make you "sinning against God and His word". Purity becomes nothing but fear based legalistic behavior management.
Which is utter nonsense.
My purpose for purity is to bring God glory.
Because, ultimately, that's my purpose for living, anyways.
<3 Tirzah
Anyone with even a rudimentary knowledge of the Bible can see where I have misquoted the above verse. The actual scripture reads:
"For ye are bought with a price, therefore glorify God in your body and your spirit which are God's!" (1 Corinthians 6:20 emphasis mine)
Yet anyone who has been subject to conservative Christian teaching on purity is forced to admit that most Christian purity arguments go something like this.
a. It is God's intent for every Christian to marry someday.
b. He has chosen a spouse for each man/woman who consistently submits to His will.
c. The Proverbs 31 woman does her husband "good and not evil all the days of her life"
d. Therefore, she does him good even before she is married to him.
e. You are, whether you realize it or not, in a covenant relationship with your future spouse, regardless of your current relationship status.
f. It is your duty to do him good and not evil all the days of your life, This includes right now.
g. In light of that, any physical or emotional connection you have with a member of the opposite gender who is not either your husband or the person you are currently courting is sinful, if not downright adulterous.
h. (And I'm not even going to go into the whole "giving away pieces of your heart" doctrine!)
However. This argument is flawed for several reasons.
Firstly, it makes no provision for those who will never marry. Look at all the Biblical heroes who never married. Elijah, Paul, Luke, John the Baptist, Jeremiah, Isaiah...for crying out loud, even Jesus was single! Nowhere in the Bible does it say that being married is essential for serving the Lord. Jesus himself said that some are celibate for the kingdom of God and he not once condemns those who do not marry. Paul points out that those who are unmarried can better serve the Lord since their focus is on Him and not on their spouse.
Secondly, no where in the Bible does it say that God has divinely appointed a spouse for each person. It does say that He has ordained all of our days, however, he also gave us free will.
Thirdly, the problem with applying scripture about the married to the unmarried is quite simply taking scripture out of context. As my old Pastor always said, "a text without a context is a pretext".
Fourth, this is purely Biblical speculation. Again, applying a scripture about a married person to the unmarried.
Fifth, please show me where in the Bible you find this idea. WITHOUT taking scripture out of context! If you are engaged to someone, well, yes, you are committed to them. But telling a young person that he/she is currently in a covenant relationship with a future spouse who may or may not exist essentially compels them to feel that they must marry the first person they have a serious relationship with, because if they don't, then they somehow have not "saved" themselves for their future spouse.
Sixth, again, it's all speculation built off Proverbs 31: 12.
Seventh, (and this is a topic for a whole blog post in and of itself), this is not only damaging to genuine guy-girl friendships, but places those who have dated, and/or been heartbroken in a "damaged goods" category and is straight up legalism. Nowhere in the Bible does it say that interaction, a deep connection to, or a relationship with someone of the opposite gender is a sin. Sexual immorality? Yes, is a sin. Adultery and lust? oh yeah. But to invent rules which are not in the Bible and claim that anyone who breaks these man-made rules is sinning against God is exactly what Jesus condemned the Pharisees for!
Now, obviously this doesn't mean you should trash your body, engage in premarital sex, etc. But I know that I, for one, have struggled with intense shame for many years because I bought this approach to relationships hook, line, and sinker. I beat myself up over a simple dance with a guy (and mind you, this was swing dance, not even, like, slow dancing or something!) because according to this approach, since I had allowed a guy to hold my hand, I was now "impure" and hadn't "saved everything" for my future husband. Well, what if I never marry? Does that mean that I should never ever dance with a guy, hold hands, have a heart to heart, etc because it somehow doesn't save ALL my body, mind, spirit, and soul for a future spouse who, like I've said before, may or may not exist??
Now does that mean that you shouldn't stay pure? Of course not! Ultimately, though, how many souls you've won for Christ is going to be of far more value to God than the number of times you've held a guys hand.
Our approach to purity should be to, as the verse says, to glorify God in our bodies and spirits because they are bought with a price, and belong to GOD! My body does not belong to my future spouse. But by the same token, it doesn't belong to me, either! It belongs to God. It is HIS temple, and I have a responsibility to HIM to use it wisely and for HIS ultimate glory. Scripture says that as an unmarried woman, I have greater freedom to focus on GOD because I don't have to worry about pleasing my husband. If I am so consumed with the little things, however, all with a purpose to "please my future spouse", then what's the purpose of being single anyways??
May as well be married. To a shadow. Because that's basically what you are. Married to a ghost of a future spouse who may or may not exist, but who you cannot "defraud" because to do so would make you "sinning against God and His word". Purity becomes nothing but fear based legalistic behavior management.
Which is utter nonsense.
My purpose for purity is to bring God glory.
Because, ultimately, that's my purpose for living, anyways.
<3 Tirzah
Saturday, September 13, 2014
"But...You Would Never Hurt Me!"...Oh really?
"She's standing in the heart of darkness
Saying I know you got a soul even though you're heartless
How could any woman in her right mind be so blind
To find something this safe...
Cause if you're looking for heaven, baby, it sure as hell ain't me!"
- Walk Away (The Script)
"You would never hurt me!"
That phrase has the power to snap Toothless out of his trance and bring him back to the light, as it were.
And....That phrase is one of the biggest lies being fed to young people (especially women) in relation to relationships.
I've found that phrase, or a variation of it, countless times in romance novels, songs, quotes, etc as the standard formula of the "good girl who falls in love with a bad boy". After all, it doesn't matter how many hearts he's broken in the past, he would never hurt her! She's going to be the one whose love has the power to break the darkness within his soul! Right?
WRONG!
It's the classic "Bella-Edward complex", where even though he's a bloodthirsty monster by nature, lives off human blood, and even admits to lusting after her blood, he supposedly would "never hurt her" because he "loves" her!
There was a time in my life when I too was young, naive, innocent, and firmly believed in the power of that phrase with all my heart. My ideal guy had a dark past, darkness in his soul, believed himself a monster, had done things he was ashamed of, and I was completely sure that he would be brought back to the light through my love.
No more.
I've learned the hard way that some people are just fundamentally flawed. Some people are broken beyond the power of human love. And sometimes no matter how much you love someone, sometimes you can't save them. The heart of darkness can't always be fixed. Sometimes they won't let your love heal the broken places within them, and they choose the darkness over light. Monsters aren't always redeemable. And the more you hurt yourself trying to fix someone else, the less capable of helping others you become.
I've channeled all my love, sympathy, empathy, caring, patience, heart and soul into a broken person before under the misconception that somehow I could be the one to change the heart of stone. I've said more times than I can count "You would never hurt me!", ignoring everything that common sense, my friends, my parents, and even he himself had told me, firmly believing that somehow my love had the power to save him. But in the end, I was the one left bleeding and broken, and instead of alleviating his darkness, I merely absorbed it. And in an attempt to heal him, I only hurt myself more when the relationship fell apart in the end.
Now don't get me wrong. I firmly believe that no one is beyond the power of God's love. HOWEVER, some people are beyond the power of human love.
And I'm only human. I'm no angel. I can't save anyone. I can only love them.
But to believe that the power of human love, especially that of a woman for the man she loves, can somehow redeem him and bring him back from the power of darkness is naive at best, and downright deliberately misleading at worst.
As the song goes, "Save yourself from the heartache/Go now before it's too late".
Walk away, darling. Before you find yourself head over heels in heartbreak because, when all's said and done, you cannot save someone who doesn't want to be saved. You can only love them. And pray to God that it's enough.
It has to be enough.
It has to be enough.
*Note: This IS a rant, written in the heat of the moment, and does not necessarily reflect all my views on the subject ;)
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